MHOWving On #2: Stalking


Stalking will always and forever will be a part of moving on- well, for me. When we broke up last February 6, I must admit I stalk his profile every single day for the first week just to see if he's getting better or maybe I'm just finding excuse to see his profile but one thing's certain- it is a part of how I move on.

I remember one time that I stalk his evil sister's account. To find more things to make me hate her. But then I realized that this is not healthy. 

So I let go with this stupid "stalking" thing. 

I focused on these people who loves me and people who supports me and Edmund. 

Last week he sent a message asking how are we doing and he told me that me misses me. Honestly, I lost my focus again. I remember telling to my friends how jerk he is and how I despise him and his family. If only you guys knew. Sigh! 

I'm trying to find my emotional freedom and gain my composure again. I hate it when I cannot even write for my work. I don't want to lose my job. I can't even take a bath. How can he do this to me? Why I keep letting myself be like this. I don't want to be like this anymore. I need to be more stronger. Lord, help me.

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  1. Stalking is a good way to cope. I do it too.... What he's doing, with whom, when, where he's going, etc.... I keep myself very busy so that I don't have time to log on the Internet or touch my phone.

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  2. Words are easier than action, give yourself time because you're only human, take things slowly and let go because you should focus on things that matters to you and love yourself more. All the best babe.

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  3. I'm guilty of still stalking my ex once in a while, but just for some lighthearted fun. Nothing serious.

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  4. Stay strong babe. You deserve someone better. The phase that you've been through now is the part of breaking-up. Trust me, you'll get better soon.

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  5. I still stalk my exes too and I know one just got engaged this year. Cheer up, maybe a new hobby to busy yourself. Not sure for you, but playing with makeup sometimes make me forget whatever is disrtubing me.

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  6. I think everybody goes through a phase but no worries, time certainly heals all so just focus on yourself, think positively and everything will fall in place soon <3

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  7. I did some stalking too, on my ex. When I learn that the other side has moved on and even have babies, I cried, thinking that those memories could be mine. But then I realised that God's has everything planned for us. So, I let go. God has greater plan for us.

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  8. let it go, let it go... hahaha... it is ok to stalk once in a while, but not everyday... I confess to stalking ex boyfriends /husband/ my husband's ex wife etc but like once a month or so.... just to check up on whats going on in their lives..

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  9. To truly let go, you need to find your own purpose and life without him. I remember a long time ago, I was in a similar situation and I decided to improve myself. I would workout everyday and find as many things that I like to do and did it. This will occupy my time and my mind. Time will heal all wounds.

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  10. Be strong babe! We are all here to support you, you are not alone. This world have lots of beautiful things awaiting you to explore!

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  11. Stay strong always! You are not alone as you have us as friends here ;) cheers, SiennyLovesDrawing

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